All My Life I've Been Searching For Something...

End of a Dream

I think I'm going to start adding songs at the bottom of the post just for fun, and I'll try to fit in songs that fit a relaxed mood or the post.

Anyways, this will be a bit of a downer post, but some tough news is gonna follow.

First, the somewhat impersonal news of Vancouver Canucks prospect Luc Bourdon being killed in a motorcycle accident. I've heard of athletes getting injured because of motorcycles before but this kind of a gut wrenching blow. Obviously, when anyone passes away its a big deal and is a bit of a shock. I guess celebrities and athletes that pass away are bigger news because it seems sadder because they had a chance to live a dream that many of us wish for but can't attain. Fame and influence certainly put the story on a bigger scale.

I know I kind of wanted a motorcycle, but hearing the circumstances of the accident have turned me off of it. I don't know for sure if this is how it went down, just a rumbling from an internet board, but the Canuck prospect was in the midst of passing a track that was pulling over when a gust of wind surprised him and pushed him into oncoming traffic. I read a comment of how you should think about the actual or potential car accidents you've had, now think of them on a motorcycle. Hey, if you think you'll be okay, don't stop yourself, but be aware of the risks.

As for news a little closer to home, I don't know the exact details but my grandfather was admitted to the emergency room because of blood leakage in the brain. Not exactly sure, but it was what I was told. We visited him Wednesday night and he seems to be doing fine, he was alert and knew who we were and could describe what was happening. He caught up a bit on what we were doing in school, and around this point my lack of Chinese speaking caught up to me as I was unable to communicate as much with him as Keith did. Its kind of been scary because he is up for hip surgery, and at his age its an obvious risk. I read a doctor's presurgery report and it said that the age was really the only concern, but now I wonder how this will change things. And if he does go through the surgery it will be a long road ahead.

I look at my grandparents and mortality is all I can think about. Just looking at pictures from a few years ago to now, there seems to be a difference, they seem much more frail and small than they used to. I remember as a kid being taken to school and home on my grandfather's bike, riding on the front. I remember playing cards with my grandmother and Keith, and how they both would play some version of soccer indoors (used some tables as nets!). Man, I had a tough time scoring if my grandpa was in net because he covered so much...

Foo Fighters - Ain't it the Life